heya guys, here i am updating my diary after eons, haha, i'm currently in the internet cafe, ok, yet again, trying my best to update a diary entry.
it's the first day (is it eventhe first day yet? its only 12pm, dun think he even stepped off the plane) since jingxiang has gone, not sure whether has he even reach yet and i'm already abit on the downside, not really missing him terribly TERRIBLY, did not wet my pillow last night, but feeling abit D_U_H (spaced out, screensaver mode if you get what i mean).. like how am i going to spend my two months trying to keep myself occupied so i won't miss him?? =( anywayz, jx told me to ask his mom out for lunch, so on and so forth, i decided this is the time for me to get to know his mom, spend time with her while her son's away and hopefully uncle a lil bit better. =D (i'm looking forward to that)
This few weeks are quite crucial because i'm 5 weeks away from exams and there's alot of deadlines these few days, there are quite a few major projects to handle, some which we have not touched on, haha! everyone's still operating
on pentium 0.01.
ok.i mean my friends love to say i do too much, but i mean my intentions are just for the projects to move on alittle faster. i don't mind taking on a few more tasks, so i volunteer. but it seems like unwanted help and wanted help.
(confusing eh?!)
like they would tell you why aren't you doing this anymore for me when you stop and complain when you start.
(?????!!!!??!)
Well, since they complained ever since the first few semesters, i am trying to put a few things down and see how projects will go at their pace and decisions. Its not going too well. =x
haha, don't worry about me though, i'm starting to run faster and you know what guys? i had this test this morning at 8am which i totally forgot until 2am in the morning yesterday but i didn't really study or practise~ well, i wanna PTL!!!!! for the reason that i had been practising accounts on my own using our faithful secondary school textbook so yes i had practise to back me up, i'm not TOTALLY LAZY, and i mean the greatest MIRACLE was i managed to balance EVERYTHING on my FIRST TRY for my trial balance, p and l account and balance sheet~!! i mean~ i couldn't believe it!!! everything just had to balance themselves out on my test day, not during my tutorial practices~!!! PTL~!!!!!!! you guys do know i fail miserably for accounts, haha, its really God's strength that followed me through...
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OK FINE!! I CONFESS.
yes i do miss him alot ALOT x_0 (ain't i a contradictor) but i'm trying hard to keep myself occupied and also focus on other needy areas of my life for now... i'm really aiming for good results this semester and alot of other stuff..
for now, i'm still a bit moody here and there, please kindly pardon me for that, but i'll get through. HAHA~
mmm, remember what Pastor Kong told us on this week's service that running at 80lm/hr doesn't cancel out your car's potential to run at 250km/hr? i just felt that i'm running at 50km/hr and there's alot of debris on the road...
Bump.
BUMP.
BUMPbump.. Bump.. BUMP.. BUMP, Bump!!!!
so that is why sometimes all you have to do is to make sure you are not the one driving the car but God is. i mean God is the super duper ultimate champion racer and booster, gauranteed to make our cars run at 100% more than its supposed to, and we are the car = vessel. but most of the time, we look out the window at where God is driving us to and we freak out at the passenger seat and try to force God off the driver's seat and drive ourselves.. When we have the liberty to drive (Holy Spirit is not forceful), we start to speed at all the wrong place and at the wrong time. The human loves to make life difficult for themselves don't they?
That's kinda of a revelation i got and it expanded more while i typed. interesting yarR? okie! that's all fer now~!! love ya guys~ i'll see ya all tonight!!!
-----------staying joyful =D------------